December 2, 2008

A Servant's Heart

I have been thinking quite a bit about having a servant's heart lately. Looking inside myself to see if I truly have one or not. Looking to see if I am kidding myself about where my heart really is (as I am the easiest person for me to fool).

I have gotten involved recently in some activities that touch upon the type of ministry work I feel I would like to do as I progress through seminary, looking to focus on:

  • Working with other ministries sharing my financial and management experience
  • Working with business people sharing my experiences as a Christian,and for a long time non-Christian (actually, often unChristian but that now sounds so uncharitable and well un-Christian) business executive
  • Working with young men and women coming into the workforce as a mentor or coach as to starting and flourishing in a career
I have opportunities to do some of this, and I see the Lord putting more in my path in the future. I am thrilled.

But am I doing it with a servant's heart? I look at how I struggle with anger, pride, frustration and selfishness and I know i have a way to go. I look at my Lord Jesus and I know I have a LONG way to go.

I believe this struggle is natural and normal and we all face it in differing degrees at differing times. The key to me is to recognize the struggle and reach out to the Lord for help in overcoming it quickly. To me, my progress is measured in how fast I turn to Him, not in eliminating the feelings and behaviors I know fall short of His ideal. I am never going to get there.
"For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus."
As Philippians 1:6 states I am a work in progress and I know when I am going to get to the finish line.

So until I do and become His perfect servant, let me struggle to have a servant's heart, a servant's hands and a servant's mind as I walk my narrow road towards Him.

2 comments:

barrywallace said...

Great post, Andy. Thanks for being so transparent. If only we all understood how easy it is to fool ourselves, and learned to turn quickly to Christ in our weakness and struggle.

Laurie M. said...

"...my progress is measured in how fast I turn to Him"

a very helpful thought! Thanks.